Sunday, 15 May 2011

Photography and what it means to me!

As many of you already know, I have a love for photography. I was about 10 when my parents bought me my first camera. I can remember even back in those early years, having a fascination with scenery shots. When I was 12, my parents took me on a trip to New Brunswick and I can still remember the feeling I had when my dad took me down to this old Pier and I shot photos of the waves crashing on the rocks. When I got home, I was so excited to use my allowance to go out and develop the film and buy picture frames. 
I never lost that passion and as I grew older, my love for photography has grown. I love the memories, happiness and often laughter that looking over old photos sparks inside me. 

There have been many wonderful moments that I have shared with family and friends that I have captured in photos. I know that often times I have been known as the girl who is always taking pictures. But to me, as time wears on and our memories fade, there is no better way to recapture those emotions and relive those great times than through a photograph.

I never really looked at photography as a hobby, it was just something I had always done. Through the years, I had always wanted a really good camera, but I could never really justify spending the money, so I always had just your standard snap n shoot. Then a little while back I had a moment with a random stranger and her words have changed my outlook. So I went out and bought a camera and I joined the Airdrie Arts Society. Through the ARTS I have been able to meet many talented Artists of all genres. But in particular, I met another photographer who has kindly started mentoring me. It has been amazing and I have already learned so much but I know there is still so much more to learn and I am looking forward to it :)

Saturday, 7 May 2011

Letting it all go!

Well, I have to admit that I am finding blogging more difficult than I imagined. I have always loved to write, and finding things to write about have never been a problem for me, but I am finding the hard part is being ok with letting everyone else read my thoughts. I always think about the what ifs? What if no one likes what I wrote? what if I am boring? Writing in a journal is easy, no one reads it (or at least you hope they haven't) but sharing your thoughts and feelings for everyone to critique... that is the part that I am having trouble getting use to. But I know that I need to just let go and remember that not everyone will like it, but if my words can help even one person, well then that is an accomplishment!

Tuesday, 12 April 2011

Getting to know me :)

Maybe I shouldtry to focus on one project at a time. I tend to bounce from project to project and from one idea to the next. I guess you can say I am a typical I am a serious multi-tasker and I tend to get bored quickly. So I need to try to maintain my focus! 

I love… Scenery! There is nothing that calms me more than when I can sit back and just take in a beautiful view. It helps me to clear my head and regain myself. 

People would say that I’menthusiastic. I can get pretty excited when I am talking about something that I am interested in. Sometimes, I can get lost in the moment and more times than not, my stories tend to get very animated with hand motions and sound effects.

I don’t understand… why at 34, I am still not in control of my emotions... It is very frustrating that I wear my heart on my sleeve.

When I wake up in the morningI need time to wake up. I like to think about what needs to be accomplished that day. 

I losthmm I will have to come back to this one. 

Life isan adventure that I look forward to everyday.

My past iswhat made me who I am today. I always look back and learn from my experiences.

I get annoyed when…people drive slow in the fast lane lol 

Parties arewell that depends on what kind of party. I am not into the whole "Huge House Party" atmosphere anymore, but I do enjoy getting together with close friends. I also love Weddings. Who doesn't love to dance all night :)

I wishthat I could never have another migraine in my life

DogsAs much as I love dogs. I don't really have a whole lot to say about them.

CatsScratch too much and really just do what they want to do, when they want to do it!

Tomorrow…  is a new day with another opportunity!

If I had a million dollars… I would become a perpetual student.

I’m totally terrifiedof enclosed spaces. I force myself to do things to overcome my fear on a regular basis. But it hasn't worked yet!

Monday, 4 April 2011

Through the Eyes of a Stranger

Time and time again, I have been taken back by comments made to me by random strangers. Sometimes through standing in line at the grocery store, other times while I am on the phone at work. The other day while I was talking to an elderly woman, she really made me stop and look at the way we (as a society) live our lives.  50 years she began to go on....50 years my husband and I have been working hard, saving for our "Golden Years". Banking all of our hard earned money, planning our retirement and putting our lives on hold. We kept our dreams bottled up, telling ourselves that we will be in the lap of luxury when we retire. We will have all the time and money to do what we want, when we want to do it. I didn't know where she was going with her story, but I let her go on. " If I had one thing to say to young people today, it would be don't wait. Enjoy life as it comes because you never know what tomorrow will bring." It would be 2 years since they had retired and her husbands health was disappating right before her eyes. It wasn't 6 months to the day they retired when her husband got diagnosed with Cancer. Now almost 2 years later, he is bed ridden and unable to enjoy any of his hard work. She went on to tell me that her health wasn't the best either and taking care of her husband was taking it's toll on her as well. Even though all this sadness had been weighing on her, she still tried to remain positive. She keeps telling herself, that someday, whether it is in this life or the next, they will enjoy their freedom together. "Young lady", she said to me... "when you get older, you get tired earlier, your body becomes more frail, and alot of times your health starts to fail and quite honestly you don't have the umph to get out and be really active. So don't wait..."  Live and enjoy the day were her final words to me. Now I know that planning for retirement is a necessity in our economy and in the world today. But what I think is important and what I took with me from my conversation with the nice elderly woman, is a good balance. I think that saving for a rainy day and having retirement is key but so is living and enjoying life. I went home that night and thought long and hard about her words to me. I went out that night and did something that I have had on my infamous bucket list for quite some time. I finally got my camera that I have been putting off getting for years now. I went out and was shooting some pics and I thought about the woman that I had spoke with. Here's looking at you Ester! Thanks for the advice :)

Friday, 1 April 2011

Empty Nest Syndrome???

Being a teenage mom had it's trials and tribulations sure, but it has been the most rewarding experience of my life. I have been so fortunate as far as any parent would be concerned. Being a mom is the single most important job I will ever have. But now here I am, only 34 years old and finding myself with all these questions about who I am and what I want out of life. Shouldn't I have had all of this figured out by now???  But then I realized, when your 16 with a baby, you tend to get into your new role of mom before you have even had the chance to learn about yourself. I have spent more of my life being a wife and mom then I have discovering myself. Now Sasha is 18 and getting ready to go away to University. We are so close and I know that I am not losing her, in fact, it seems to be the opposite, the older she gets, the closer we become (which I didn't think was even possible) but still I am left with this gut wrenching feeling of emptiness. Who am I if I am not Sasha's full time mom? This is where my journey begins... I need to find myself. What am I passionate about? What am I good at? I definitely need to take on some hobbies and classes to explore the answers to these questions. So I am looking forward to this next phase in my life and what it will bring and I look forward to sharing it with all of you! So sit back, relax and enjoy the ride :) Cheers